heвЂ™s had a hard morning, thatвЂ™s part of the reason why his thoughts are so down, he supposes, but thatвЂ™s also a reason for why he shouldnвЂ™t be entertaining thoughts of why the cursed mall happened to be built in their hometown. itвЂ™s a hard topic of conversation and itвЂ™s even harder to let the thoughts freely roam your mind without an attempt at controlling them. Ian doesnвЂ™t let himself think about it anymore and neither does joshua. вЂњitвЂ™s fucking stupid.вЂќ his words arenвЂ™t carefully thought through, they arenвЂ™t clever, they arenвЂ™t mature, but they represent exactly how he feels. but the last part of that thought is selfish, and joshuaвЂ™s stomach starts aching as he realises. it feels even more unfair knowing that shrike heights has the university and the ski lodge by chance, in the grand scheme of things the founders of the town could have settled anywhere, or maybe joshuaвЂ™s family could have lived somewhere different, and none of this would be happening to him right now. Ian describes exactly why shrike heights got the addition of the mall, joshua assumes, but it still doesnвЂ™t feel any better having someone else talk through the fact, he doesnвЂ™t feel closure on the subject and he still has the urge to scream out вЂwhy us?вЂ™, вЂwhy me?вЂ™ because things feel so brutally unfair right now. He wouldnвЂ™t bother his coworkers with their order when they werenвЂ™t really customers. What do you want? A coke? Coffee?вЂќ Ian asked Joshua once theyвЂ™d gotten to their destination. Late afternoon was an even less popular time to grab an omelet than the middle of the night when Ian typically worked.В вЂњWhy donвЂ™t you grab us a table and IвЂ™ll get us some drinks. A few lonely souls hung out scattered amongst the tables but it was by far less stimulating than the rest of the mall right now. The diner soon came in view and as expected it was just as slow as Ian assumed. Ian wasnвЂ™t good at customer service and was much better in the back somewhere tinkering away at a broken machine or fixing up someoneвЂ™s order. Ian loved comics but the social aspect that would come with having to help people out like that was something heвЂ™d pass on. Ian wanted to make sure he went back to that place stronger than heвЂ™d left it.В вЂњYeah, IвЂ™m sure you have to help a lot of customers at the comic shop too,вЂќ Ian agreed. Besides, werenвЂ™t they trying to cheer Joshua up right now? That conversation was a surefire way to plummet his mood further and Ian knew eventually Joshua would have to return the place heвЂ™d just been yelled at in. Whenever Ian tried to find a motive for any of the bullshit happening right now he only ever came up empty handed and it was a chilling thought exercise heвЂ™d rather not partake in. He wouldnвЂ™t let himself think about it any further than that. That or there was a little portal of hell they had to build over in that plot the latter was starting to feel less and less like a joke.В вЂњApparently we were always a city we just didnвЂ™t know it,вЂќ he shrugged. He felt like the people of Shrike all had a similar negative opinion of the structure that seemingly brought evil to town along with ClaireвЂ™s.В вЂњI donвЂ™t know I guess itвЂ™s because weвЂ™ve got the lodge and the school and shit,вЂќ he gestured roughly in the directions the two fixtures of Shrike Heights that had brought the developers there over another podunk town in the vicinity. It was convenient not having to drive 40 minutes to the nearest anything sometimes but the mall hardly seemed worth it with the carnage it brought. Ian never thought heвЂ™d be wishing to go back to simpler times when his biggest fear was getting shoved into a garbage can by some bullies. Ian often wondered why Shrike had been subjected to the changes it did.

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